To Flounder or Not to Flounder
After putting in 300 hours in my studio (plus my day job) to get my solo show ready in January and February, I was tired and needed to refuel. So I decided to take a break.
In addition to a few weeks relaxing, I also rewarded myself with a weekend trip to see the Rothko Chapel and immerse myself in the amazing art in Houston.
This was exactly what I needed. I came back from Texas full of ideas and ready for the next chapter in my studio.
But then nothing happened. I did nothing. I didn't go to my studio. I didn't post the images from my opening on my website. I didn't write about the amazing trip to Houston.
I didn't push myself. Decided I was going to just watch TV and movies on my computer every night.
Six weeks later I'm still doing nothing.
It's very easy to justify the nothing, to claim burnout.
Yet I know there is more involved. I was over the burnout weeks ago. I'm now floundering in inertia. I'm verging on falling into depression.
So I have a decision, do I continue to sit back and wait for divine intervention for my energy to return?
Or do I push myself to get back on track? I know how to do this. I make short to do lists. I complete the big scary tasks on my list first as I know they are blocking me from moving forward. I schedule time in my studio and show up every day. I schedule down time and friend time so I stay connected and don't burn out.
A few days ago I vote for getting back on track. Because if I want to reach my goals, I need to move forward, and I can't do that sitting in front of a computer watching yet another episode of Bones.
As the saying goes: 90% of success is just showing up.
It's time for me to show up.